today....

6 days till Christmas...how can that be??? the last time i checked it was summer...lol
anyhow the presents are bought...not much this year but i think the kids will be happy...i even got something for Daisey...hope she likes it...

everyday i realize more how lucky i am that i have good family and friends...
I LOVE my Life...even when I am miserable and bitchy!!!

oxoxox to my peeps

TURKEY DAy...

Oh jeez...turkey day another wonderful success...thanks to the hard work of my very special family...MOM u ROCK...JUL u r amazing and I hope you know that...I am very happy for the wonderful family I have...Tanner and Noah were the best kids today...they always seem to make me feel special...I also got to see NET and Ri...the greenbean casserol was charming...
I wish my Oregon family was here but...they are in my hears forever...Love you guys...
Anyhow...I am at work now...got to see some of my other favorite people...and we are going to go shopping tonight...so all in all its been a beautiful day...

LOVE to my PEEPS........

love love LOVE...

I got to babysit Tucker and Pyper today...yah me!!! I love babies....I really do!!

Mae was at the house for the night...she is freaking hilarious...she made out list for Thanksgiving dinner...my lord was it a good one...we should be full to the gills...

Bud came home at 3 this am from his friend Daniels cuzz he had a stomach ache...ya sure he missed his AUNTY...

Bob is very uncomfortable today and I think his hip is swollen...not sure why but it sure looks it...I told him to take ibuprofen but of course he wouldn't. Suffer the fool...thats what drugs are for...

Winter...

Our journey began it seems so far ago...but really it was 6 short months ago...how time flys...Bob is on his way to a full recovery...still weak yet moving along...a funny limp is all thats noticeable, really...
Robert and Chelsea are now 15 & 14...
Another thing that has happened since our fruitless summer is Bobs reconnection with his biological mother...he talks to her on the phone peridoically and she says she will see him this summer...I really hope they do get together...though I do not understand what kept them apart all this time...I guess it is not my right to judge. Oh well good luck to both of them...Come hell or high water my 2011 summer is going to be a good one!!!
Till next entry....

okay so the end of august is here and i start class tomorrow...im excited!!!
830am will be early... but at least i am getting educated...

BOB and the kids are home...they are taking care of business...MISS is making supper...poor baby girl...

im exhausted cuzz i worked 14 hours yesterday and 16 today...its kicking my butt!!!

Anyhow i need to get bakc to work my break is over....

holy cow where has time gone...

it seems like yesterday i was blogging everyday...but its been almost a month...time has flew by...its almost time to go back to school...

our home life seems to be one struggle after another and i am having a difficult time coping...JULIE def is my ROCK...when i feel like my rope is about to snap i call her and she brings me down...she is better than a crushed oxy snorted to the brain...lol

BOB seems to progress to recovery everyday...someday he will be back to baseline...now if only i can make it there with him...lol...the kids are great they are troopers for sure...they work hard and do a good job with it...they deserve kudos!!!!
hopefully i will do a better job blogging it seems to sooth my sole...

health and happiness to all....

its been a few days but my life seems like it is non stop...BOB takes a lot of my time between his care and doctors and paperwork...i stay pretty busy...but thats ok cuzz everyday he gets a little better...Monday we get to call PT to get started...he is weight bear as tolerated...YAH...

the summer is definitely flying by...i think i lost the whole month of JUNE (LOL)...

CHELSEA is loving summer school and ROBERT is being a typical 14 year old...and has definitely been a great help to his dad...

on a lighter note i guess i pissed off some of BARBs friends and i have no morals and values...since i date her husband..roflmao...she is funny i hope she didnt lead them to believe that she ever LOVED him...holy crap...they were split up for years before i ever gave him a second thought...check out her facebook they ripped me a part...oh well nothing LOST...her friends are all crack heads anyhow...she attracts loosers...but i did start it by saying tell yer friends if ur gonna go to water safari without yer kids dont post pics...i'm BAD!!!!

anyhow...im not going to say sorry because i want to spare her kids feelings...she should have told them ahead of time and told them she would take them...but MISS said she told her if she didnt shut her mouth she wouldnt take them anyways...her excuse...whatever she is the one that has to look in the mirror every morning...its her conscious...like i said i will be the one to pick her up when she falls....

enough negativity...good night all...LOVE TO MY PEEPS....

....at work again...BOBs home...ROBERT and CHELSEA both continue to be big helps they definitely deserve a reward...BOB continues to be very bored, he hates sitting in the chair, he wants to go to work, mow the lawn, putter in his shed...and guess what I want...A NAP!!!! Oh well I'll get by...hope everyone is enjoying their summer...its going by fast!!!

yesterday was a beautiful day...BOB attended NETs 21st...he definitely enjoyed himself, but was exhausted upon returning home...got his meds, and a snack and into bed he went...Jody and Gary were definitely a spirit booster for him...THANKS GUYS...PEACHTREE helped a little too..

He felt loved yesterday...Thanks for the HUG NET!!!!

day 2 of the rest of my life...

...back to work today...MOMs with BOB...MISS spent the night with the CLIFFORDs...today is NETs 21st bday party...dang i'm getting old...

...BOB is adjusting well to being home...yet trying to do things he shouldn't...he got stuck on the couch last night...we finally managed to set him free after much thought process...our furniture is old and saggy...just like me...

...PT (Steve Booth) came yesterday and the RN from Public Health...got his blood drawn...and had a good BM, all in one day!!!

...Hopefully everyday is as productive as yesterday...
.........................LOVE TO MY PEEPS.............................................................................................

BOBs first night went fairly well...the bed was fairly comfortable...MISS had to dump his urinal for him once...that was kind of cute...she gagged!!! But the kids are doing great...they have been very helpful...MOMs there now...I'll be home after 2:30...

Love my BOB and CHELSEA and ROBERT!!!

here is a pic of the works in progress...we watch JOD works...


short lil post tonite...JODY the poor guy finished the ramp tonite and made it a lil easier for BOB to get threw the front door...the w/c is in the JEEP...The boys are wrapped up on the couch...and MISS is at AUNT JULs...I can't say THANK you enough to MY CLIFFORDs...they are my ROCK ...when it feels like I'm gonna ROLL...





....BOB will be home tomorrow...LOVE LOVE LOVE...sweet dreams to all...

holy trucks JODY is on a role....1st ramps up and my bedroom floor is getting repaired...tomorrow he will finish the inside ramp and then its home BABE...

...BOB and I had a disagreement on the phone and of curse...MOM had to be here and I lashed out a her...Thank GOD she is my mother and loves me...JUL and JOD they dont ever say a word...

....I"M adding some pics from EMs visit last night...I still lOVE that KID...and...the boys in the tree...love them more..RI JAmes was here for a few...I love him too...O everyday gets better and better....

another day another thought process...today we will build a ramp or shall i say Jody will...when he gets his water fixed...BOB has already called he is up, on the commode and getting ready for OT at 9am...he is now on lovenox injections BID and oral coumadin daily...JULIE and MOM have the addition ready to rock for him...i need to get some paper towels to wash the windows...MOM is going to have to cash a couple checks for me today so that i can pay our mortgage...its funny but that last time i saw BOB walking he was leaving home to go pay our mortgage...where the heck has time gone...25 day of my life are gone..had some EM time yesterday...pics will be posted later...cuzz CHELSEA uploads them to the computer for me...anyhow...EM is getting so big and so intelligent...she looked down the hall and in the bedroom a few times...for guess who...BOB...she would peek down the hall and say BOB?...it was cute...JUL brought over some french fries and she gave one to EMMA and she took a bite then gave a bite to DAISEY...she loves the dog and the cat...that she was calling tat...the kids loved on her all night...but she was stuck up CHELSEAs butt most of the night...she did talk on the phone to BOB once...she was still up at 1030 when her Mom got here to pick her up..we were eating some chips and dip...we sure do love the kid...anyhow got a lot to do today...hope the rain holds off cuzz i got to get this lawn mowed...2 more days and my BABE will be home...oxoxox to all....

...I dont even know where to begin today so i decided i would start with my BLOG...I have so much to do today....oil change, find a docotr, enroll miss in summer school...call insurance company...yatta yatta yatta...

...did anyone notice that it is the 2nd time i added the pic of the jeep from the rear view...i am a fool...anyhow...the dog has been out...i've talked with BOB...now i need to start with phone calls...the countdown begins...

...it looks like it is going to be a rainy day...hope everyone can enjoy the day even though its rainy...

...i thought a pic of Robert and Em was appropriate for todays blog (to bad they werent looking at us)...BOB misses his kids and also Em he wants to see her as soon as he gets home...got to love him!!!

oh hell where to start...what a weekend...3 days 2 nights in Fanny Allen rehab center sleeping on a folding chair next to Bobs bed...glad to be home but I do MISS BOB terribly...

...I think we already established that BOBs a grizzly bear...so no new pics while he is hospitalized...he is on the mend...he remains non ambulatory but can stand and pivot on his left leg pretty well...he will be home as soon as i install a ramp, get a primary care physician and his w/c arrives...

my family continues to be my base of support...MOM, JULIE, JODY are saints among us...i can not even begin to list the things they have done...just know that I love you guys with all my heart..now don't feel left out if your names not here...Allison I love you too and thanks for the blueberry i love the dam phone...and the phone calls while I am traveling...where would i be without u...Chelsea Robert and Mae, just having you home with me makes my world complete and Daisy thanks for remembering me when I have to leave u for days...

OK so back to my thought process...I have to throw away some junk in the addition...and get that ready for Bobs room...got to get this house clean for when PT and Home Health come...

and...Bobs Aunts are supposedly going to come here and see him, so I need to make sure my house is cleaner than theirs...I also have to sign Miss up for summer school...yupper she HAS to go...no way out of it...oh well... this summer sucks already..but you know what the people I love the most are pretty healthy and through perseverance and hard work we will make it through..

last but not least...Peggy, hey girl I thought u were going to be able to dive my JEEP but I guess.. NOT...

...what a freaking day...31/2 hour trip to glens falls for a 3 minute appt to add spacers....jesus...and then tomorrow i head to Burlington...

...i added this pic of DAISEY because she is going be home all alone...waaahhhh...she misses her daddy too... oh yeah she is not going to be all alone...the tat will be home with her...

....the traveling should be over soon...BOB is working hard...very hard to get home, we need to make some adjustments to our home, but we did see it coming...

I've been so miserable lately I can hardly stand myself...but I think I am working through it...

the kids are healthy...BOBS on his way to recovery...I have wonderful family and good friends...I'm gonna be ok...

More blog when i return from Burlington...

... I guess for a minute I forgot that Bob is a very personal man and I shouldnt have posted his hospital pics on facebook...anyhow pics will be posted later when he is all healed...and everyday is a day towards his recovery...PT OT and speech started today...he is exhausted...but exhaustion is good when u are on you way to recovery...

...and a sincere and heartfelt Thank you to my co workers at Maplewood...for the card and money...every little bit helps...

Peace love and serenity to all...

What a day...Sunday to Monday Bob looks great...he is getting showers...hair is clean...smells good...he stood 3 times with PT on 6/21....without putting pressure on his broken leg...he is very determined to get home...

His prognosis gets better everyday...the trauma Dr did tell me to plan for at least 6 months before life is at baseline...he headed to rehab this morning 6/22 at 9am...hell ya...he says 1 week...i say 2 weeks my mom says 1 month...and body else what to make a guess...we can make it a game and the person closest can be Bobs personal care aid when he returns home...cuzz when he returns home he may not be walking...just standing and pivoting...holy hell our place is not handicapped friendly...i don't care though...

and Peggy...for real when was BOB or I normal...I think u may need to see a mental health counselor...LOL

Robert and Chelsea were charming while in Burlington...check out the pics on facebook...they are wonderful...there is one thing that I will always know...BOB has made a lot of mistakes in life but he LOVES his kids...and they do put a shine on his face and when BUD grabbed his hand yesterday...their was tear in old Dads eye...

So...as I close my BLOG for today...there are a few things I know...when my life feels bleak and weary look next door cuzz there is someone whose life is much worse....prayers to those who have lost the ones they love...and I am so fortunate to have the loves of my life right here with me and a family who never stops loving us even when we are miserable and cranky!!!!

well...here i sit at the hampton inn me mom robert and chelsea...and bob is at Fletcher allen...miserable as a grizzly bear...he looks fabulous...good skin color...moving around more (in bed only)...his lower extremities are cool to touch but...he does still have a lot of edema...he is mean as hell and never wants me to leave...thank GOD i love him and btw as mom says im a whineass moley coddler...and btw...

Peggy if ur gonna read my blog leave a comment sometime...im not gonna knife u...thats way to dirty....hehehehehe

your lip stick stain on the left side of my right side brain....

thats how im feeling today...Bob has left our life in a mess....but GOD willing he is gonna get better...and life will come around...

nothing new in his progress today...its the weekend and PT and OT and doctors don't do much...that's OK though...rest is what he needs...

Mike Chysmeyer from Mahoneys (his job) drove to Burlington to see him today...that is very nice and he enjoyed the visit...

a lil funny for the day...i told him he got a card from his aunt Kathy and he is like how much is in it....so see his mind is better now heal body heal...
as miserable and rotten as he can be I LOVE HIM and can not wait for him to get home...

off to Burlington tomorrow after work...

Happy BIRTHDAY tomorrow to my favorite... and BTW only MOTHER ALICE M GREENWOOD, my favorite Oregonian sister ALLISON J ELLIOTT and my very best friend in the whole world KRISTA L COLLINS-LUTHER...

counting the days to my GIRL LESLIE A CLIFFORDS 21st!!!!!!!

well... life changes in a beat of a heart....yesterday I was n Burlington most of the day...I fed BOB watermelon ice cream and Alice's scalloped potatoes...

he has an open pressure area on the back of his head...that he has complained about since he got out of ICU and ...he has a blister on his rt calf...

today...i worked 12 hours...Thanks Maplewood...

......and Bob got the Dr to let him chew gum, got a shower...(YAH)...and the best part of the day the Dr wants him getting into a wheelchair...(DBL DOG YAHHHH)...OH and the best part...he got a brace that fits him better and is no longer rubbing on the back of his head...heal pressure area heal....now we just got to get him steady on his feet and get his butt home...i'll prolly need to get a new bed...a shower chair and maybe a bigger higher reclining chair...I DO NOT want him to go to a nursing home...

and last but not least....Thanks AMANDA for being close by when i needed a little reassurance ...this may sound stupid but when Julie and Net are out of service...I know I have you right around the corner....Thanks again to all the PEEPS that make my life complete...

oh jeez one more thing...my sympathy to the family of katrina Latimer (rita and darrens sister)..

I LOVE U BOB MCBAIN....FOREVER.....MILLION XO's

June 17th...

Sorry Amanda i was in Burlington until 6ish...i was exhausted and frustrated...Bob has a pressure area on the back of his head from the brace... the nurses are very rude and the food sucks..
Tonite when i get home i'll give a better update...
Love to all....

Another evening spent with the kiddies...missing my man and the kids are missing

their DAD...

Good night my loves sleep well...

I love you all...oxoxox

i thought i felt better today and life seems to be getting a little easier...but every time i talk to BOB...it seems a little more depression creeps in...
I love him so MUCh...and I hate that I can not fix what is wrong...our relationship has always been based on survival...getting throughthe rough spots but this "ROUGH SpOT" is taking my breath away...
HOpefully when he is strong enough he can get to acute rehab in OGdesnburg...my fingers are crossed...

and on a lighter note...i dont know what i would do wihout these heathens i call kIDS...BUD and MISS are my life line to sanity...

what day is today

Bob called me two times today...he still is so groggy...kind of hazy....they sat him up on the side of the bed....attempted to try to stand him but it didn't work... there is light at the end of the tunnel I'm just waiting for it to shine...

I continue to ask him if he wants any visitors besides myself and the kids and he adamantly says NO...I even suggest people and he still says no...

he continues to have difficulty feeding himself so the nurse has to feed him...

I'm headed to Burlington in the am...spending the day with my precious love...the kids were gonna go but they have test that they have got to take...

My wish for today...BOB to make a full recovery it does not have to be quick...but I want him HOME...

I LOVE U BABE!!!!

June 16th

thought i would add a pic of the rear end of SADIE...

June 16th...

another day with out seeing you...it seems like eternity...i woke up this morning expecting you by my side.. a tear slipped out lil by little knowing that u were not in sight...but i also know that you are getting the best possible care and healing a little more each day....thats all i can ask for...for you to heal and come home to me...

i went to work today...counting the days before i could see you...a fresh smile on my face...the monotony of work helps me through my days...if i'm feeling miserable you must be even more miserable...there are some fabulous people left in this world...JULIE you are a saint among people...sent directly from heaven i know...i dont have an idea what i would do without you...and i would give you the world if I could...you are my rock...NET...u r awesome...i love you too...your lil note today almost opened the flood gates...but i kept my cool took deep breaths through my nose and new that you ment it from your heart...where would i be without BUD and MISS...no explanation there...and just one more person to add to the list of people i would crumble without....my MOTHER....u r the best...no doubt in my mind...u deserve a medal...I love U ALL..

now enough about me...BOB is slowly progressing towards recovery....he called today....im much physical and mental pain....of course he wants to come home...he even said he would go to the nursing home...and would even let Gert wash him when he got there...(NO OFFENSE TO GERT INTENDED)...things are starting to clear in his mnd...he finally knows where he is...he knows he was in an accident...we didnt discuss the jeep today...
he is resting now having received some pain meds...i'm gonna call him later this evening...
thanks again to all my peeps..

the first day of the rest of my life...

june 5th...

i have never felt such sorrow as i did waiting to figure out where you were...were u alive or dead...hurt or just passed out somewhere..
i heard your voice at 1:20pm, you said babe call 911...my back hurts and my ear is bleeding...
911 found you not shortly after that THANK GOD...
i never thought in a million years that my SUPERMAN would end up so broken...


june 6th-13th...
ICU in Burlington Vt. dang..the kids and I are a rotten mess...family and friends are rallying support...a broken femur, collapsed lungs, cervical and lumbar fractures...to say the least your body is a damaged mess...but BOB MCBAIN...if you ever doubted I LOVE U...think again cuzz my heart and soul felt like they were ripped from my chest as I sat by your side..wondering if you were ever gonna be the same. My handsome strong loving protector is so weak and there was not a dam thing i could do...my love for you was all i had...together i know we can get through this crisis...
we are strong and united...we may not be your average ordinary family...but we have each other..and that's all we need...


june 14th....

my first day back to work and the first day i have not been able to make it to your side...;but i have to work...we are gonna need all the money we can get...
I'm broken and out of sorts...i look at my phone constantly waiting for you to call...I'm going through the motions trying to make it through another day...you are alive and everyday u get a little bit better...AMEN...
Thursday definitely can not come fast enough...I LOVE YOU BOB MCBAIN...FOREVER..OXOXOX